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Broken Beyond Repair (Part 7)
What if your life seemed completely shattered, yet you discovered a power capable of restoring it anew? Join us in an emotionally gripping exploration of Myra and Dev's journey, a story that resonates with anyone feeling trapped in their circumstances. With the powerful metaphor of the potter and the clay, we delve into the ability of faith and how God can reshape lives even in the most broken state. As we recount Myra’s transformation from trauma and despair to love and compassion, you'll uncover the profound impact belief and support can have in one's life.
Our discussion takes a heartfelt turn as we recount Myra's past, marked by domestic violence and a lack of support. These early experiences led to profound emotional distress, leaving her feeling abandoned and hopeless. David shares his perspective on recognizing her hidden pain, shining a light on the crucial need for understanding and family support. Together, they reveal the stark realities faced by so many.... Through their story, we aim to spread a message of resilience and encouragement—that change is possible, no matter how dire the situation seems.
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Speaker 2:What have you actually said? I haven't done? What else? What else do you want from me? Day and night, for you. Everything I do is for you.
Speaker 3:I pay the bills, I'm good for you and I grace you better.
Speaker 2:I gave up everything to be with you, and yet you still treat me like trash.
Speaker 4:You can't remember a time when things weren't like this. The police are being called to your home to break up a family fight. This is a normal daily routine for many. The day started with a mild argument and by the end of the day it had escalated into a violent fight. You've heard vulgar comments all your life. At times, you even wonder what the future has in store for you and your future family. But the future has in store for you and your future family. Unfortunately, many have yet to understand what is really behind these family fights. You can break my body, but you cannot break myself it is an evil, working to pull this family apart.
Speaker 5:We were doing like pills to get high and we were doing cocaine and that moment I was doing weed. We were living in the streets and I was looking in the trash so my kids can eat something because they were hungry. What to do? We don't have no money. We live in the streets.
Speaker 6:Broken Beyond Repair. The untold stories of those who were once broken broken beyond repair.
Speaker 7:God is the one that can take a broken vessel and he can do it again, redo it. Today we have this couple here by our side and they are going to share their experience because their lives Bishop David's indeed were broken. I was thinking of Jeremiah when God sent him to the potter's house house and when he went there he saw that the potter was making a vessel with the clay right then it's broken, and he took the clay and he molded shape, another one. And this Bible verse is very interesting when the Lord said Like the clay in the hands of the potter, so are the house, the people of Israel, in my hands. So he's the one that can take the broken pots, broken vest, and he can redo it.
Speaker 8:Nothing is impossible for God. God can do anything, and this couple here. You know, it's not every day that you hear a story like this, right.
Speaker 7:Yes, not every day.
Speaker 8:They went through a lot. They went through a lot of suffering and, you know, there were times in their life that people would look at them and they would have to say there's no, there's no way they're going to recover from this. They are broken beyond repair. There's no hope. This is, they're in an impossible situation. But what god did for this couple, for myra and dev, is a true miracle of God.
Speaker 7:And you are going to learn more about this true miracle. And today I want to challenge you who are broken. Somebody told you there is no way out for you. You cannot make it. Somebody has told you that this is the end. You heard it from your own mother, from your own father, somebody that was supposed to support you. This person told you that you cannot make it. I want to tell you what God said Just as clay in the hands of the potter, so you are in my hand. God can mold, shape. He can redo your life, your family, your marriage Through ashes. He can give you a new life, new life. So, before we speak to Myra, let me ask you, david, when you first met her, how broke was her life Since the day number one you met her? Of course, you did not know anything about her past. You just met a broken lady. Where and how you met her?
Speaker 9:um, I met her working at mcdonald's and, uh, she had a lot of anger issues. She would get angry a lot and sometimes it would be uncontrollable. Where she wouldn't calm down she would hit her head on the wall. There was one time she kicked a hole in the wall in our apartment and I didn't know like what was causing all these problems.
Speaker 7:So you met somebody that was a suicidal because she had this anger problem, hit her head against the wall.
Speaker 9:So you met her. You were working, yes, so in your working place you met her?
Speaker 7:Yes, I met her in my working place, so you did not know anything about her past.
Speaker 9:I knew that At the first you met her.
Speaker 7:The first time you met her, you did not know anything about her past no, okay, but you knew that you met her. You did not know anything about her past no, okay, but you knew that you, uh, you met a broken person she was broken when she started to reveal her life.
Speaker 9:Yes, okay.
Speaker 7:So, myra, we want to hear from you how broken were your life. When did you your suffering start?
Speaker 5:my suffering started when I was 13 years old. My stepdad used to hit my mother and every time I used to defend my mother. It was one time that my stepfather was touching me and I told my mom that my stepfather was touching me. She didn't believe in me. So in that, everything changed. I started cutting myself, doing drugs, thinking I had to Die already. It was one time that I caught myself and my mom said why you don't go deeper and die already?
Speaker 8:Your own mother.
Speaker 5:Yes, sir.
Speaker 8:Told you, just Go deeper and die already. Put the blade deeper and end your life.
Speaker 5:Yes, sir, I was cutting myself. And she saw that I was cutting myself and she said why you don't go deeper and die already.
Speaker 8:And how did that make you feel it was worse?
Speaker 5:It was, was worse, I wanted to die. I like, what, like, and and when I'm at school, I I don't know about god, but um, I be hearing people about god. I never know that god was, um, was like real. So what? Um? Every time, like, well, if you, if you hear what you make, like why, why I'm suffering like this, why my mom do not, and every time my mom say, michelle, she always tell me like why I was going to abort you.
Speaker 7:So, maria, when you did not know God, you heard about Him. And this is the situation of many people. They don't know God. They heard about God like we all hear about the president of the country, the governor, the mayor. We know them through the tv, the news, but we do not know them. We never met them. We hear about them. This is how many people hear about God, but they have never met. They don't know God's power.
Speaker 8:They hear things about Him, they sing songs, they go to church, but they don't know who God is. They haven't experienced Him personally, his power, his, you know comforting them. They've never seen the power of God in their life. There are a lot of people who go to church and they believe that miracles exist, but they've never seen a miracle for themselves. If you say, do you believe in miracles? Yes, I believe. Have you ever seen one? No, I've never seen a miracle. And so only when we truly find God and know God can we understand that he wants to work in our life and change our life Right.
Speaker 7:She heard about God but did not know Him. You were saying that when you had the blades, you were cutting yourself. Why are you doing that? To call your parents' attention? Yes, sir, because I want my mom.
Speaker 5:I want my mom attention because she never. She never gave me the attention that I needed it because she always be with my stepfather fighting and doing those things. So I wanted attention. So bad that I started like cutting cutting myself like drinking pills just to call her attention. Yes, sir.
Speaker 7:But when you heard from your mom say go deeper. So those words, those statements, yes, sir, killed you inside.
Speaker 5:Yes, sir, it did. Yes, it was worse. It was worse. I was. I was choking my own self. I was doing a lot of things to die already in that and I was like, okay, I want to die, I don't want to, I want to die. I don't want to know about God, I don't want to know about nothing, because I'm suffering right here and my mom, like she, do not care about me you said your step-dads taught you yes, sir and she did not believe it was um.
Speaker 5:I told my mom she was touching me and he was telling me that I was getting younger already. My mom, she didn't believe in me. She said I was lying.
Speaker 7:Bishop David. She's not the only one that we hear saying that the parents, the adults, do not believe that when they say that they are being taught, molested by somebody like a family member, stepfather, uncle. It's a problem that is happening all over the world.
Speaker 8:And the problem is that when this happens, the person becomes really desperate because they're coming to their mother or their father and saying that something is happening. And when their parents don't believe, their parents are there to help them, to protect them they're the adults and when they don't do anything, so it's like that little girl, that little boy becomes desperate Because so if my own mother is not going to believe me, she's not going to help me and protect me.
Speaker 7:So I have nobody, and that's why now now we have a lot of prostitution, prostitutes, people that are confused. Their sexual orientation have changed.
Speaker 8:And even people constantly getting into abusive relationships.
Speaker 7:That's right, because they already spoke to she, was a young girl, spoke to her mom. She did not believe. Now, how can a person like this go to the authorities, go to the law enforcement? The first thought is nobody will ever believe me. Yes, so why say it? Why talking to the authorities? Because my mother, my own mother, did not believe my father, my grandmother did not believe me. Why should I report this person? And they give themselves into it. Some of them feel guilt. They say I was raped, I was abused, that's my fault. So the spirit, the evil spirit, confuses a person's mind. Myron, did you ever think that was your fault? Yes, sir, you did.
Speaker 5:Yes, sir, I actually did. I actually thought that was my fault. Why, I don't know. It was just in my head. It was just in my head.
Speaker 7:How old were you back then?
Speaker 5:I was 13. 13 years old when everything started.
Speaker 7:13 years old, yes, started 13 years old, yes, sir. So you felt alone. How did you react? You had no protection inside of the house. Did you ever go out in the streets? Did you run away? What did?
Speaker 5:you do. No, sir, I just started. It was only being by myself, no friends, nothing, because I didn't want to have no friends. I was so depressed.
Speaker 8:Did you feel that you were worthless?
Speaker 5:I feel like I was like every time they're trying to kill myself, I'm like, why don't I die? I'm not worth it for this life.
Speaker 8:It's not worth it. It's not worth living. No, sir, I just want to end it all. Yes, sir.
Speaker 7:You are saying that these people that were abused, they also end up in abusive relationship. What about you?
Speaker 5:Yes, sir, I got out of the house with the father of the kids because I want to leave already. I didn't want to be no more there because it was a lot of fights, and every time there was a fight I always defend my mother, but she never defended me. So when I followed the kids when I was pregnant, he punched me in my stomach when I was the first child.
Speaker 8:You left your house because of the fights and you went with another man and even more fights. Yes, sir, so you weren't resolving any problem no, but I saw it.
Speaker 5:I saw that the part from my mother, so I like if my mother's giving it, so I had to leave it too so you start to live like, just like your mom yes, sir did you have kids?
Speaker 5:yes, I have three kids. Three kids, yes, sir. And the first one, um he like, and the first baby that I have. He really showed the true colors that he was. He punched me in the stomach when I was pregnant with my first baby and we started doing drugs. I didn't know that I was pregnant, so I started doing more drugs. I was doing cocaine and weed when I was pregnant. I didn't even know that I was pregnant.
Speaker 7:You did not know.
Speaker 5:No sir.
Speaker 7:If you are watching us and you hear a lot of negative words, somebody that is telling you you cannot make it, you do not deserve these words that are killing you day by day, killing you day by day. As Ramada told her, go deeper, cut yourself and die to us. The pain that she felt was the pain she felt from those words was stronger from the blade, the blood she was bleeding, the pain was deeper, was stronger. Let us understand now the impact of negative words.
Speaker 13:Words, words cut deeper than any knife. My family, the ones who are supposed to support me, love me, are the people who are hurting me. Day in and day out, All I hear are negative words You're stupid, You're incapable, You're worthless, and although I know this isn't true, after some time you start to believe it is anyway. I truly don't know how much more of this I can take. I just want to run away. I just want to run away, be rid of my family for good, but I can't. Just two more years. Two more years and I can be free free to make my own decisions free from these negative words.
Speaker 3:You are now listening to Soul Food with Bishop Bera Joshua. Before I knew my name, before I drew a breath, he was making ways for me Now and every day. In each and every step he is making ways for me when my heart is full of doubt, feels like faith is running out. I've come too far to turn around.
Speaker 2:God will work it out. God will work it out. One thing I know, one thing I've found God will work it out. Oh yes, he will. Things are coming together.
Speaker 10:Pushing past the fear, fighting to believe he is making ways for me and he won't let me down, never, ever leave. He's still making ways for me. When my heart is full of doubt it feels like faith is running out.
Speaker 2:I've come too far to turn back now. I know, I know God will work it out, god will work it out, we'll work. Yeah, one thing, one thing oh, we'll, oh, we'll work. Yeah, god will work it out, god will work it out. One thing I know, one thing I've found oh, god will work it out. Oh, be encouraged be encouraged.
Speaker 7:So, mayra, so this video is about your past. Yes, sir, those negative words, you just want to run away.
Speaker 5:Yes, sir.
Speaker 7:Tell me about the other two kids.
Speaker 5:Well, the other two kids, everything was good, but I still was doing drugs. I was still I'm doing drugs, um, but the follow the kids, um, it was a stream. It was crazy. It was like can you stop already, because we have three kids already? Well, in that time, we have two kids already and in that time I was like two kids already. And in that time I was like, please stop, because I had to. I had to. You had to be a man and go and work, because we don't have. We don't have no jobs.
Speaker 5:We were living with his mother and we didn't have no jobs at all, but we were doing a lot of drugs. And then he got in a fight with his mother and then her mother kicked us out of the house and we became homeless, with two kids already and no jobs. So the kids were hungry and I had to get trash cans so my kids can eat. I had to go look for some trash in the so my kids can eat, because they were hungry and I didn't have enough. No, I'm sorry. So my kids can eat because they were hungry and I didn't have nothing to eat. So I looked for the trash cans so my kids can eat something.
Speaker 7:So you found yourself searching for food in the trash can because your children how old were they?
Speaker 5:They were like. The girl was like if I'm not mistaken, she was five, and the boy was like he was a baby. He was a baby.
Speaker 7:Baby some months. Yes, sir, so you had a newborn baby, five years old girl, and you were there searching for food, looking for food to feed them. Yes, sir, we see that her life was beyond repair. Yes, beyond repair.
Speaker 2:Yes.
Speaker 7:So when we drive around, we see these beggars, homeless people in the streets, we could have found her.
Speaker 8:Yes, she was one of those people, one of those people that were there looking for food and, and you know, bishop Joshua, being homeless is bad, but being homeless as a mother with two children is like extreme, my goodness. It's like a nightmare. I think it's the worst thing that any mother could imagine, because those children didn't deserve that, and what's also, I want to state his debts.
Speaker 7:Mayra, let me ask how old are you?
Speaker 5:I'm 32.
Speaker 7:Two already 32 years old. So we are talking to someone that since her childhood, from birth, all that she knew in life was suffering.
Speaker 8:Yes.
Speaker 7:Suffering nothing else no family, no attention from the mother, no peace at home. And when she started involved with the baby's father she got kicked off of the house. She was on drugs, she was on the street. We can write a book of her suffered life.
Speaker 8:And you know some people could say so. Why did you choose to live with an abusive man if you grew up in an abusive home? But people don't understand that the spirit that was in her parents' home passed on to her, Of course, and so she wasn't in control of her mind. She was attracted to these men that were not good for her.
Speaker 7:That was not her decision. What people should understand. That was not her decision. What people should understand. That was not her decision. She was born into it. She grew up into it. You will say I suffer, I'm suffering, but not like her. She suffered more than I am. Well, if there was a solution for her, she's going to tell us in a few. There is a solution for you. That's why you are watching today's episode the Broken Beyond Repair the case of Myra Myra, that was indeed beyond repair. But now I am challenging you. It is a challenge. You are going to call the number, you see, and you are going to make this challenge. I mean, accept the challenge I'm making. 1-888-332-4141. Call this number. Somebody on the other side of the line will answer you, or else you can send the text. I have the device here with me. Send a text, shout for help, seek for help right now, and we are going to help you. 1-888 3124141.
Speaker 6:Do you feel broken and helpless? Join now the Broken Beyond Repair Challenge and begin to see great changes in your life. Call now at 1-888-332-4141. Or text SORE CHALLENGE to 1-888-312-4141.
Speaker 12:Right now, you might be feeling like there is no way out, and you might be feeling like your only way out is to end it all, but by doing that, you're robbing yourself from the opportunity to find happiness and to realize how beautiful this life really is.
Speaker 8:Give yourself a break, Take some time off, even if it's just for you know, a day on the weekend or something.
Speaker 14:Be patient with yourself. We all go through hard times and don't let anyone tell you or discourage you from what you're going through.
Speaker 15:You know, when I went through what I was going through, I had such a difficult time with my parents because they didn't know how to communicate with me about it and I didn't know how to communicate with them about it. The world is so big now. The Internet is there, there are resources. You just have to know what the right questions are to ask and figure out how to find the people that are going through the same things as you.
Speaker 16:Get off the couch. Just like get off the couch. I know it's so easy to sink into it when you're feeling crummy. Force yourself on a walk. Make sure you're moving your body. Whatever that looks like dance, yoga, hiking, football, anything Just move your body.
Speaker 1:Whatever it takes, go get help. We live in a place where you can get help. If it takes five weeks, three weeks a month, just wait patiently. Don't give up. Don't give up on your life, because you will eventually be the person you were before. Trust me on that.
Speaker 2:I just want you to remember that you can create something from the pain that you're feeling. You can help people in the midst of all of it. Just love yourself. Be patient with yourself.
Speaker 5:These are things that make you wonderful and unique and develop the personality and develop you into the person you are meant to become, and know that you are loved and you're special and you're wonderful.
Speaker 14:Every day, I'll write down the things that I'm grateful for and when I'm in those dark places, even if I don't believe it, I will just look at that list and say it out loud and remind myself it's going to be okay, and you have so much to live for, be good to yourself, forgive yourself, be kind to yourself.
Speaker 16:You deserve it. It starts with you and I promise, I promise it'll get better.
Speaker 14:Find people who care, and if there is no one who does care, stick up for yourself and advocate for yourself, because you're worth it.
Speaker 11:Things will start to happen, motion will start to happen and it's never, ever, ever going to be cut and dry easy black and white. I'm, I'm anxious, I feel better like it's. It's never going to be that, but at the end of the day it feels so much better to move forward than to stay stuck.
Speaker 7:Take the challenge. I promise you you are not going to regret. Myra, suffering after suffering. Three kids homeless on the streets on drugs, no family, nobody to help you. How did you find us?
Speaker 5:Okay, we were trying to look for a church and one of my friends invited us to the church. The first time that I went to the church for me was weird, because I didn't know about church. I didn't know about church, but I felt pretty good and then we started going and going, more like I see changes coming quick in my life. You have been to other churches before no, sir, I never went to no church church.
Speaker 7:I didn't even want to know about church no, no you have a blame, god, for your suffering. No, sir, no.
Speaker 5:So you are looking for a church, looking for a solution yes, because things I was, I was good, they were going very crazy, um, and now, the first time, the first time they went to the church, it was like something changing me, something very changing me, and then we started going more and more and I, like, I started liking it the first change you saw that happened was inside of you yes sir okay.
Speaker 7:did you both go together? Yes, okay, and you were in your working place when you met her. Yes, you got to know her story. Yes, okay. So in the church. What change have you guys seen in your life?
Speaker 9:Well, now we don't have many arguments anymore. If we do, we're able to work it out, because it's normal that couples have disagreements. We're able to work it out. She's not doing what she did before as far as getting mad to where she couldn't control herself, and we're happier. We connect better, we communicate better, we understand each other better.
Speaker 7:Just to clarify something here when you met her, she was homeless with her kids, so you are not the baby's father. No, so you guys got married. Yes, okay, how is your marriage?
Speaker 5:It's good, it's good.
Speaker 8:No abuse.
Speaker 5:No, it's different.
Speaker 8:No, drinking no drugs.
Speaker 5:No, it's different.
Speaker 7:How long have you been married?
Speaker 9:A little bit over a year. A little bit over a year, but I've known her since I was 17, 18. So like five, six years.
Speaker 7:So God gave you a family that you never had.
Speaker 9:Yes, sir.
Speaker 7:Yes, your husband, the kids, the kids. You have the kids with you.
Speaker 5:Yes sir, yes sir.
Speaker 7:So now you have a family. Yes, sir, how long have you been in the Universal Church?
Speaker 5:Oh, we have like.
Speaker 9:A year and a half, two years almost. We're going to the years already Okay.
Speaker 7:So, mayra, now you are able to lie down and sleep in peace.
Speaker 5:Yes, like everything changed. Now I have a job. I'm a manager in a job already.
Speaker 2:Wow, yes, congratulations.
Speaker 5:I have my kids, my kids. They don't suffer no more. They eat whatever they want. Now we have an apartment, everything changes.
Speaker 7:You just said, they eat whatever they want.
Speaker 5:They eat whatever they want now.
Speaker 8:So, mayra, I wanted to ask you a question. Has God healed you from all the memories of the past?
Speaker 5:Yes, I forgot my stepfather. I forgot my mother. I talked to my mom already. I talked to the father of the kids already. He's actually going to the universal church. He got baptized. He's changed too. A lot of things are changing.
Speaker 8:So you don't have nightmares about the past.
Speaker 5:No sir.
Speaker 8:It's like God gave you a new life inside and out.
Speaker 5:Yes, like if I'm telling you that my whole life changed.
Speaker 7:my whole life changed it's like God gave you a new life inside and out. Yes, if I'm telling you that my whole life changed, my whole life changed and she had many reasons to be a bigger person. Yeah, to hold these grudges. Yeah, we are talking about her mother, stepfather, we are talking about the baby's father, all these people, let me say they contributed for her suffering. Of course, they were used by the evil one, the evil spirit, but you see the work of the Holy Spirit. God repaired her life outside and inside.
Speaker 8:Myra was telling me that she has the Holy Spirit now.
Speaker 5:When I knew I have the Holy Spirit, I was like I feel love. I love everybody and I used to hate everybody. I didn't talk to nobody. Now I love everybody and I want to help. I want to help everybody. I want to help people that are suffering like me.
Speaker 7:So it's clear now, when the husband said, that she is a different person no more arguments, no more fights, because this is the work of the holy spirit. Yes, what else shall shall we say? Say to you, and upon it we cannot add anything else, just the word of god. Before we finish, I want to read with you the word of God, what he said. Then the word of the Lord came to me saying O house of Israel, can I not do with you? As this potter Says, the Lord, look as the clay in the hand of the potter's hand. So they came into the church with this broken life, but they became clay in God's hands and God was able to take this family, this clay, and do a new vessel.
Speaker 8:Make them into something beautiful, yes, something useful.
Speaker 7:That's right.
Speaker 8:Something valuable.
Speaker 7:So, after all this, nobody can say I am broken beyond repair. Right can say I am broken beyond repair. Everybody watching this story, this powerful testimony. You can take your own decision. Just say to yourself there is a way out. God can repair my life. No one is broken beyond repair. So thank you very much for your story, for coming, for joining us, okay, okay, thank you, bishop David. It's a pleasure. You are not broken beyond repair. Contact us. The universal church is open every single day. We have a church all over uh the country and also all over the globe. Wherever you may be watching us, through any platform, you are not watching us in vain. This is God's plan. They came and God did not let them down. This was one more episode of our program Broken Beyond Repair.
Speaker 6:Broken Beyond Repair, the untold stories of those who were once broken. Thank you,